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So... After working in the aquatics lab for about a year, I left. The environment there was toxic and it was getting to the point I was coming home crying every day. So after I left, I was jobless for about 2 or so months before finding a job in a healthcare lab.
It's a lot bigger than the aquatics lab and to be honest, I really love it here.
I sketch quite a bit at work, so you will see that stuff, as well as any other projects I end up working on in the future.
Also, finally won a National Novel Writing Month with 50,603 words on November 30th. It makes me so happy to finally complete a story. I plan on editing it in about 2-3 months and seeing if it is worth being published. If I believe it is worth being published, then I might put a small clip of it post-edit on here.
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That's really all my updates for today. If you don't hear from me in a while, Happy Holidays everyone!
~EA
It's a lot bigger than the aquatics lab and to be honest, I really love it here.
I sketch quite a bit at work, so you will see that stuff, as well as any other projects I end up working on in the future.
Also, finally won a National Novel Writing Month with 50,603 words on November 30th. It makes me so happy to finally complete a story. I plan on editing it in about 2-3 months and seeing if it is worth being published. If I believe it is worth being published, then I might put a small clip of it post-edit on here.
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That's really all my updates for today. If you don't hear from me in a while, Happy Holidays everyone!
~EA
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Hey...
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So... that aquatics lab position lasted a little over a year... I couldn't handle the toxic environment anymore so I left.
Now I have a new job in a healthcare lab and things are improving, but I end up sketching whenever there is downtime. You've probably seen some of the sketches I've done and I might upload others in the future.
I'm starting up some new projects and attempting to finish some older projects, so fingers crossed that that stuff goes well.
Also, doing pretty well in NaNoWriMo so far, hoping that it continues going well. I might put bits and pieces of the story on here, but we will see.
Here's hoping everyone is still doing well!
ElvanArtisan
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It's been a while
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Hey!
I'm just here to let you know I'm still alive! The past 6 or 7 months I've been working in an aquatics lab where we test water coming out of companies (like waste water treatment plants and plastic factories) and into rivers and streams. I love the job, but the other lab workers... not so much. I get along great with the drivers that work for the company and all but I've been feeling really incompetent and just sort of... not good enough to work there despite my boss telling me that I'm doing fine.
As far as artwork goes, I have some WIP pieces I might upload at some point, but I need to go through and see what I uploaded and what I haven't. I got a new tablet in June which is awesome so I've been working on my digital artwork as well (I might post a picture of that WIP too). Altogether, if there is anyone still out there that wants to continue to see my works, I might just start uploading more. I have been inspired by so much and I easily have over 20 projects set up that I need to finish... I just don't have the time to do artwork since the lab job is full time and I always come home feeling exhausted due to how much stress my job puts on me (more so because of the social anxiety/just wanting to work and go home without an issue).
On top of everything, I plan on moving out from my current place by summer and that means I've also been thrown into the role of "adult", which means I have bills to pay and stuff like health insurance and student loans to worry about... but I've been doing that since I started the job. I'll try to come back and start uploading stuff soon... I also have a little over 1,600 pieces of artwork in my notifications that I likely won't get to anytime soon. Sorry about that, guys.
I hope everyone is doing well and should things go according to plan, I'll be more active on dA. Fingers crossed!
~EA
I'm just here to let you know I'm still alive! The past 6 or 7 months I've been working in an aquatics lab where we test water coming out of companies (like waste water treatment plants and plastic factories) and into rivers and streams. I love the job, but the other lab workers... not so much. I get along great with the drivers that work for the company and all but I've been feeling really incompetent and just sort of... not good enough to work there despite my boss telling me that I'm doing fine.
As far as artwork goes, I have some WIP pieces I might upload at some point, but I need to go through and see what I uploaded and what I haven't. I got a new tablet in June which is awesome so I've been working on my digital artwork as well (I might post a picture of that WIP too). Altogether, if there is anyone still out there that wants to continue to see my works, I might just start uploading more. I have been inspired by so much and I easily have over 20 projects set up that I need to finish... I just don't have the time to do artwork since the lab job is full time and I always come home feeling exhausted due to how much stress my job puts on me (more so because of the social anxiety/just wanting to work and go home without an issue).
On top of everything, I plan on moving out from my current place by summer and that means I've also been thrown into the role of "adult", which means I have bills to pay and stuff like health insurance and student loans to worry about... but I've been doing that since I started the job. I'll try to come back and start uploading stuff soon... I also have a little over 1,600 pieces of artwork in my notifications that I likely won't get to anytime soon. Sorry about that, guys.
I hope everyone is doing well and should things go according to plan, I'll be more active on dA. Fingers crossed!
~EA
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I'm really super behind... Sorry guys.
I have a lot of stuff to upload and a lot of stuff to go through and favorite. I haven't been active and I also have been struggling to find a job I really like...
so I'm back at PetSmart, which wouldn't be too bad if only I made a living wage. My art and my state of mind hasn't been... great... neither has my motivation. I feel like I' constantly going back and forth in and out of a depression and I don't really know how to get out of it...
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Sorry, but I don't think I will be that active for a while... at least until I get my motivation back.
~ElvanArtisan
I have a lot of stuff to upload and a lot of stuff to go through and favorite. I haven't been active and I also have been struggling to find a job I really like...
so I'm back at PetSmart, which wouldn't be too bad if only I made a living wage. My art and my state of mind hasn't been... great... neither has my motivation. I feel like I' constantly going back and forth in and out of a depression and I don't really know how to get out of it...
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Sorry, but I don't think I will be that active for a while... at least until I get my motivation back.
~ElvanArtisan
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Try as I might, try as I may...
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... I feel like I will never be good enough.
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Hi everyone! So, art uploads will be on hold because... I don't have much art to upload... I mean, I guess, if you guys want I can upload all my water bugs (macroinvertebrates) in resin up on dA and give you some information I know about them... I work about 12 days in a row thanks to summer camp, but I'm fine with that because my spending has been awful lately and I really need the money.
I remember the campers during the week telling me that I was a really good drawer and they were really impressed with what I could to.... But I was at his much longer than they were... and one girl I asked if she wanted to be an artist when she grew up and she said "no, I want to be a vet." I smiled and said "that is a great field to go into! But there is no reason why you can't do both." ... and I used myself as an example. I know I'm an artist because I make art... not good art, but I make art. And then I go on here to tackle some of my deviations and as I'm going through the 1,900-something deviations to try and figure out what to favorite (I will at some point, I promise! Not today, but at some point), I'm seeing all of you grow and develop as artists and making incredible pieces and I'm so happy for you all... and then I look at my own artwork and I feel a bit.... stagnant... I don't feel like I've been really developing as an artist... I know that is my own fault because I haven't had time to do any art or to really develop more skills as an artist... but so many of you have other stuff you have to worry about like other jobs and college that I feel like I really don't have an excuse... I love my job... every part of it... sure, sometimes it gets hard and waking up way too early in the morning is a pain, but I still enjoy every minute of it. I come home exhausted from the days I had, but I still have a smile on my face. I'm... really, honestly happy... I just wish I had more time and energy to improve as an artist. My boss(es) tell me that I'm allowed to have a life, too... and before I just laughed and said "Life? What's that?" but I might just take them up on the offer... even though I might not be going out to have fun with friends, at the very least I can spend it in day to listen to music and draw or write.
And, thanks to the advice of a biology teacher and friend of a friend... I have decided on what I want to do with my life. I want to take the leap into marine science and get my masters in Marine biology and/or marine animal behavior. I've got an overnight camp tonight... so while people are sleeping, I will begin studying for my GRE's. I was supposed to do that a little while ago, but I've been putting it off. I really do want to do well on those and take my finger off the pause button on my life. I want to stay year round at Wildlands, yes, of course... but that doesn't mean I can't also find a local college to take night classes at for more in-depth animal behavior classes... and maybe even a few limnology classes, who knows? And if I don't get year-round at Wildlands, it just means that I have more time to take the GRE's and explore masters programs at colleges.
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This started out feeling really depressing and ending up on a high note, if that doesn't shout "progress" on how my mental state is, I don't know what will.
~
Hi everyone! So, art uploads will be on hold because... I don't have much art to upload... I mean, I guess, if you guys want I can upload all my water bugs (macroinvertebrates) in resin up on dA and give you some information I know about them... I work about 12 days in a row thanks to summer camp, but I'm fine with that because my spending has been awful lately and I really need the money.
I remember the campers during the week telling me that I was a really good drawer and they were really impressed with what I could to.... But I was at his much longer than they were... and one girl I asked if she wanted to be an artist when she grew up and she said "no, I want to be a vet." I smiled and said "that is a great field to go into! But there is no reason why you can't do both." ... and I used myself as an example. I know I'm an artist because I make art... not good art, but I make art. And then I go on here to tackle some of my deviations and as I'm going through the 1,900-something deviations to try and figure out what to favorite (I will at some point, I promise! Not today, but at some point), I'm seeing all of you grow and develop as artists and making incredible pieces and I'm so happy for you all... and then I look at my own artwork and I feel a bit.... stagnant... I don't feel like I've been really developing as an artist... I know that is my own fault because I haven't had time to do any art or to really develop more skills as an artist... but so many of you have other stuff you have to worry about like other jobs and college that I feel like I really don't have an excuse... I love my job... every part of it... sure, sometimes it gets hard and waking up way too early in the morning is a pain, but I still enjoy every minute of it. I come home exhausted from the days I had, but I still have a smile on my face. I'm... really, honestly happy... I just wish I had more time and energy to improve as an artist. My boss(es) tell me that I'm allowed to have a life, too... and before I just laughed and said "Life? What's that?" but I might just take them up on the offer... even though I might not be going out to have fun with friends, at the very least I can spend it in day to listen to music and draw or write.
And, thanks to the advice of a biology teacher and friend of a friend... I have decided on what I want to do with my life. I want to take the leap into marine science and get my masters in Marine biology and/or marine animal behavior. I've got an overnight camp tonight... so while people are sleeping, I will begin studying for my GRE's. I was supposed to do that a little while ago, but I've been putting it off. I really do want to do well on those and take my finger off the pause button on my life. I want to stay year round at Wildlands, yes, of course... but that doesn't mean I can't also find a local college to take night classes at for more in-depth animal behavior classes... and maybe even a few limnology classes, who knows? And if I don't get year-round at Wildlands, it just means that I have more time to take the GRE's and explore masters programs at colleges.
~
This started out feeling really depressing and ending up on a high note, if that doesn't shout "progress" on how my mental state is, I don't know what will.
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